Wednesday, March 16, 2005

So many blogs....so little time

Haven't gotten around to writing as many of these as I wanted to. Sorry. But I'll smack you with a few I've been saving up in the ol noggin real soon. But this lil one pretty much sums up what I'm feelin right now.

It's 1:05 am and I'm lying in bed. I'm exhausted, but my eyes won't close. This has been happening more and more these days. Tired with no sleep. I just lie in my empty room and stare at the dark. And I feel empty. I'm missing something aren't I? Isn't this what it feels like? Maybe I'm going about things the wrong way. Maybe I've sacrificed the wrong things in life.......maybe I haven't sacrificed enough? Maybe I should have done things differently. But what about the things now? Is this what I should do? I just don't know anymore. I'm tired of a quiet, dark, empty room at night, that only poses questions....when what I'm looking for are answers.

10 comments:

Bob Jingle said...

No need to get too down on yourself. We've all been there before, being depressed and staring at the dark. Of course, I made the mistake of of being depressed and staring at the sun and now all I can do is stare at the dark. Let that be a lesson to all you youngfolk out there. Being depressed causes blindness. Don't do it.

Bob out.

Bernadette said...

Glad to see you are back on the blog. It's ok to be sad Ian but don't let it rule you. Use that feeling as a motivation to do the things that you want. Your life has been filled with great stories and people...AND you always have WOW.

Ian Savage said...

this is what friends are for! Laughter is the best policy. Thanks guys.

shannon bouillaud said...

well the solution is obvious...you need to buy those glow in the dark stars to put on your ceiling, and one on the fan (if you have a fan) that spins around in circles! it' s ok that you forgot about this, we all forget sometimes. :P

Anonymous said...

That's a pretty deep blog coming from you. I've always known you to be the one who looks at life from the bright side and now I feel that something's askew with your life. Job, love life, family,money problems,or just your outlook on life ahead? Please feel free to fall back on friends and family for support, I know how much everyone who knows you cares for you.

shannon bouillaud said...

well, i was trying to think of something normal to say, but i do like the glowing star idea. um..in all reality..when you're in a "dark" spot in life, it's rare for the answers to fall into your lap, especially when there are endless possibilities. i think if you want something to change or highten in your life you have to put yourself in situations that will allow it. take advantage of that great city you live in and do some things to break your normal daily cycle. sounds like you've had some negative hits lately. don't let them be the mud that you're stuck in. it stinks..so stay away from it. precious time wasted...forget the past..it's just an unneccessary weight..go find somewhere to drop it, but while your at it eat some good food, listen to some good music, and watch pee wee's big adventure.

Anonymous said...

I love that mommy Shannon. She has the write touch with words.

Anonymous said...

...must agree with Shannon. take a walk down to the promenade and look at the city, breathe it in, all those possibilities. call a friend and go to Grimaldi's for a pizza down under the bb bridge. learn to accept that life is pain, and we're all in it. you are not alone.

Ian Savage said...

well said....and thank you. Never been Grimaldi's. Is it good pie?

Anonymous said...

It's the best! A quintessential New York experience....the homemade mozzarella, the sausage, the pepperoni! mmm. Very thin crust though..so best to keep things simple. One or two toppings at the most.